Lolita 179 to 236

Although the book Lolita by Vladimir Nabokov is very hard for me to understand and follow, i still enjoy reading it, as it is written in an intricate way and the main character Humbert is of a different nature than any other character i have read about. The way in which his mind thinks, the way in which he interacts with others, and his goals and motives are peculiar and in most cases perverted and somewhat disgusting. In this specific segment of the book, i once again found traces of Humbert being embarrassed and ashamed of his desire for Lo, but also showing no signs of stopping. On page 180, he states that he felt like he "lived in a lighted house of glass, and that any moment some tin-lipped parchment face would peer through." This line shows that he is scared of being caught and accused for his obsession with Lo, showing that he recognizes it is wrong.

One of Humbert's refuges in this section of the book is Gaston Godin. Although he does not tell Gaston of his obsession and unlawful acts, he feels as if Gaston is the only person that does not judge him in a negative fashion, accepting him for who he truly is. On page 181 he states, "the main reason why i enjoyed- or at least tolerated with relief- his company was the spell of absolute security that his ample person cast on my secret. " By definition, ample means generally sufficient, so in my opinion Gaston satisfies him as a friend not because they get along but because of Gaston's lack of interest in Humbert's "secret life". For instance, Humbert later states, "he was much too self centered and abstract to notice or suspect anything that might lead to a frank question on his part." Overall, Gaston serves as his "good herald".

While playing a game of chess with Gaston, Humbert's mind is fixed upon Lo, and her "bare feet practicing dance techniques in the living room downstairs." This line once again shows his deep obsession for the young girl, taking his mind off everything he is doing and focusing his attention on his "formidable Queen." Once again, his love for Gaston as a friend is also seen as he states "Gaston's outgoing senses were comfortably dulled, and he remained unaware of those naked rhythyms." Gaston's lack of attention for the girl provides comfort and sercurity for Humbert, not only allowing him to think he will not get caught but also giving him no further competition in the girl. As seen earlier in the book, Humbert tends to get very jealous when other men give the girl attention, even boys her own age. Overall, throughout this segment of the book, Humbert's "passion, tenderness, and torture" continually increase.